Hey Family,
I was going to write about the wounded masculine but I had this “altercation” while surfing this morning and it seems to be the thing that really wants to come through, plus it ties in well with everything I have experienced this past year and the lessons I’ve learned along the way.
I won’t name any names but I had a really shity experience with some people I tried to collaborate with professionally recently. There were heavy power differentials within our dynamics that ultimately led to me being silenced and for my story around surviving childhood sexual abuse to be exploited. Without getting into too many details I will just say I felt really disempowered in that relationship and it never felt safe to share my thoughts or opinions. I held back when I witnessed things that were unethical, harmful and inhumane. Ultimately, that was really disempowering for those who had power over me as well because they missed out on the opportunity to learn and grow from what I had to share.
What does this have to do with surfing? Well, I told myself after I left that relationship with them that I would never again let myself be silenced and that I was really ready to reclaim my full power. Most of my time with those collaborators felt so tumultuous and while I left relatively unscathed, the mental and emotional trauma of feeling so helpless with them really had me at my rock bottom when it came to giving my power away and I just told myself, “NEVER AGAIN.” When we hit these kinds of rock bottoms and we make these kinds of declarations Spirit/God/The Universe will ask, “but how serious are you?” You’ll be initiated into an integration period where you will get to take all of your mental, spiritual and emotional lessons and put them into real world action. I got one of these opportunities to integrate on the water today. I’ve had many opportunities since my declaration to myself earlier this year but today’s was really special.
A more experienced surfer yelled at me and cussed me out for apparently getting in his way when he tried to drop into a wave. It was really aggressive and hostile to say the least. Instead of responding with anger or defensiveness I was genuinely confused so I gestured with a shrug of like, “what are you yelling about man?” When I told him I honestly didn’t know what I did wrong there, he took the time to teach me what he thought would’ve been the best way for me to get out of the way and display proper etiquette and safety protocols. I apologized for getting in his way and we both carried on living our lives.
I thought about it more because this kind of anger and hostility is actually really common in surf culture at least here in the states and I think most western places. And I decided I wanted to take a stand for the kind of surf culture that I want to be a part of. One that is kind and friendly and that celebrates newcomers, one that is playful and joyous. I want to participate in a surf culture where we all take individual and collective responsibility for community care and safety. So I did two things.
First, I supported and celebrated this girl who was not so comfortable in the water who I noticed was going for a lot of waves but not fully committing. After she pulled out of a couple waves that I went for and got, I told her that we could party together and that I’d never yell at her for dropping into a wave with me. Then I asked her if she was nervous. She said she just hadn’t been surfing in a while and was feeling out of sorts. So I told her, “the waves look like they are going to break harshly but they are actually pretty soft, just keep paddling and go for it, you’ll be alright.” A few minutes later I noticed her paddling out from the inside and I asked her if she got one and with a huge beaming grin she said, “I did! Thank you for the pep talk, it helped!”
Secondly, I found that guy later in the water and I said “Thank you for giving me those tips, they were really helpful and I’ll think about them from now on when I am trying to get out of someone’s way. And take it or leave it but I don’t think that yelling at newer people is the most effective way to create a safe environment for all of us.” He was super defensive and started arguing with me and swearing at me again. He said I should have just taken his tip quietly and moved on. I wasn’t surprised by his response but I knew this was a great opportunity for me to share my opinions and speak up when I witness something harmful, something that I know is all too common in the surfing community. I feel so much more empowered and righteous just for saying something, and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to integrate more of my power!
What I was surprised by was that 20 mins later after I’d gotten out of the water and showered off, he found me in the parking lot and said that I was right and he was sorry for yelling at me. We exchanged some words and it ended with him saying, I hope to see you out here again sometime.
WOAHHHHHHH!!!!!
I have so many points or lessons to take away from this miracle moment that pertain to self healing, empowerment and even social justice/activism.
I think the biggest take away message I have from all of this is that the world has enough opposition and violence in it. It's what causes our wars and such prevalent cultures of exploiting fellow humans and our natural resources for all their worth. It's what gives rise to the dehumanization of ourselves and one another and the stripping away of reverence for life in all its forms.
In general, I assumed that this guy wanted something similar to what I wanted. To be safe in the water while we are all having the most fun. He just didn’t realize that nervous system safety is just as important as physical safety and that when we prioritize our nervous system wellbeing it can actually give rise to more physical safety. When we all feel grounded and regulated out there we can actually think more clearly and make smarter decisions instead of panicking and freezing or chaotically paddling all over the place. And that yelling and swearing at each other, especially newer people who are already feeling really scared is not actually going to make anyone safer nor have more fun.
In some ways he and I together ended up creating more of a partnership, of being on the same team towards a shared goal. If I had yelled back at him and cussed him out, I would have only helped him to create a me vs you situation. Further polarity, further separation, more fear and more violence.
This train of thought and the lessons from the experiences I shared here today can be applied across the board, in all relationships, in all cultures, in all industries and politics. This may be an overly utopian belief but if the majority of us thought and practiced in this way we probably wouldn’t have any more wars and we wouldn’t be in such a pickle with our planetary and global human health crises. I don’t know, maybe?
Thank you all for reading. Its been hard to know what to say with such a prevalent genocide taking place across the globe. I guess when it seems like there is not enough we can do, choosing peace and opting out of violence in every way and in every day of our lives is something. Standing for our own growth and empowerment and thereby inviting others into further growth and empowerment is something.
If you haven’t signed this petition or made the call to your local congressperson to call a cease fire you can do so here. It literally just takes a few seconds, you can just sign the petition and not make the call. But I promise the call is not so hard either, you’ll be given a script to read and most likely you’ll go to voicemail where you can read off the script, hang up and be done in less than 30 seconds.
And when nothing seems helpful, maybe love can be enough.
Shanti Shanti Shanti,
Leucas
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